Misery

I cant find someone to talk to right now.
its been so long since i write in this blog.
i dont want people close to me to find out
that i have this virtual pad to write all my ramblings,
feelings, craziness, and everything that i cant express

i feel lost.
i feel empty
i feel lonely
weird.

all i want to do is to burst into tears...

ITS OKAY ITS LOVE

im so back to writing again..yeheyyy

im gonna start with this first photo...

i just have to post this then...

SINGLE

how old is she?
she's not married
she's getting older?
why cant she find someone to marry her?
they'll be like their aunts...old maid!

i cant exactly say that those are the the words i overheard
but i know its me they're talking.
HOW DARE YOU!!!
the nerve of these man talking about those things.

it really angers me to hear those trash talks about someone they didnt even know
who are they to talk about that. they dont even know the whole story.

on top of that spreading a rumor that is really absurd!!!!!!

THE FEELING OF..

See  this image of Zooey shows what i feel right now. I'm really getting tired of all this crap that is happening to me, to us right now. I know its been so long  since im rambling about this feeling of mine. The feeling of being depress over things that  i couldn't get or things that i'm lacking. Things that really making me upset right now is...(drum roll please) WORK. I wanted to seek other job that could really make me feel prouder or something that i can boast off to relatives. When I stumble upon the facebook of a relative I saw her showing off from her pics. Yeah come one, so what If i'm not like that, so what if..........what the hell.. But the truth is, i envy her.. Because that's something i really want for myself.

FABULOUS 30

I chance upon to this movie while browsing something, 

the title catches my attention, FABULOUS 30, a Thai movie

im not there..yet

i dont know but lately i've been digging noona-dongsaeng relationship..

i feel like younger guys now are more responsible than those of  older men..

well in the movie, though.

so i downloaded this movie but to my dismay, there's no english subtitle.

i so wanted to watch this movie *waaahahh* "-"

KING 2 HEARTS-PROPOSAL

"Every morning, I will kiss you.  For revenge.

I'll follow you everyday like a stalker.

I'll buy you everything you want.

I absolutely won't have an affair.

I will just protect you.

In the future, I absolutely won't let you cry.  Not even a drop.

I want you to be the happiest queen in the world.

Until I die, I'll love only you.

For revenge." 

*me shivers* such a cheezy proposal, but coming from Lee Seung Gi, 

it feels like its the most romantic proposal i've ever heard in my life..

seems like Jerry Mcguire Korean version..keke

you know that a girl like me would fall to this cheezy proposal.

FUGLY ME

had a headache last night.. i feel nauseous.
so i sleep early...
i hadnt watch any kdrama :(

and now i feel like sulking.
i know im not the ideal g.
im not suppose to demand or to expect
that he will come to me and make my dreams come true.
but why do i have this illusions of him..
i keep comparing myself to mya, i know, i know
i cant help it, i feel like she's more fortunate that i am
eventhough she's living in the ways of this world.
things are not going in my way, eversince

so i need a good ol' drama that would make me cry out loud
so i can vent my frustrations and all the things i've been keeping

yeah, im just soo good of keeping a secret to myself...

I KNOW HE'S WAITING

inspired to write something to you. i dont know why..

i read from Gerald's POV.. 

"never look for god face, it will turn old one day,

never look for a good skin, it will wrinkle one day,

never look for a hot body, it will change one day,

never look for a nice hair, it will turn white one day,

but look for a loyal

that will love you EVERYDAY."

If you pray hard to our Lord Jesus Christ

He will give you that person

who will love you truly..

just as you want to be loved.TRUE..

oh shoot.. i forgot im not asking Him to give me that  kind of guy.

because i believe that i wouldn't find someone that fits for me.

i'll end up alone because there are some things that has to be consider.

i know im being pessimistic now but what can i do that's how i feel.

watching too many dramas may lead to this kind of thinking

being ideal to what LOVE is all about,

RELATIONSHIP that you want to build.

lucky are those who find their partner that would make their lives fulfilling.

my horoscope says that i love the idea of being in love and that

i love the concept about love

its just that i havent got to experience it and will never 

because those things to consider are secrets that can never be told....

kekekeke..there goes again me being melodramatic..

NAMPYEON?!

SERIOUSLY?!

me getting a namja is not that easy!

you cant just shop a namja in the store to be your nampyeon...

you should consider his status, many things to consider like his

work, family background, religious beliefs, etc.

and if he likes you! that's the most important!

more, having a family is a big responsibility and am not ready for that.

to age like this, i know its hard but

it doesn't mean that im lonely if im single,

 if only "kyeoron" is like choosing a dress in a closet

if it fits, then buy it...

people ask when will i settle down..why cant i find a namja?

hello!? am i some sort of fisherman to go fishing in the ocean?

the hell you care, its my life so what if i end up old maid  for the rest of my life! so waaaaaahat!

I KNOW HE'S WAITING FOR ME-LA DIVA

i like the lyrics of this song..

KING 2 HEARTS

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

okie now im good..

Im soo hook to KING 2 HEARTS. i cant believe that i'd be shipping this pairing, on the contrary nope..im still team KIM JOWON-GIL RAIM. but i also cant resist the cuteness of LEE SEUNG KI..oh gosh dramaland is making me  go crazy that i always yell in front of my TV every night that makes me a total lunatic because i think im the only one doing this kind of stuffs..

THIS REALLY CRACKED THE HELL OUT OF ME...

PLUS HA JI WONNIE is uber beautiful. she doesn't seem to be a 35 year old unnie. she doesn't age. i wonder what's her secret..^___^

I also love her voice, and her sexy physique.

LEE SEUNG KI as JAE HA is so mean to Hang A. poor Hang A always crying because she's like me?! NBSB? awkward when it comes to dating..kekekke

i wonder why Kick @ss girl like Hang A falls for @sshawl  Jae Ha?! *confused*

THE MOON THAT EMBRACES THE SUN

orenmania...i am now obsess to The Moon That Embraces The Sun..at first i was hesitant to watch this drama because its a sageuk drama. but then i learned that TMETS' writer is also Sungkyungkwan Scandal writer so igive it a try. I watch the trailer didnt interest me much, but i still watch the 2 episodes well because Kim So Hyun from Dream High is the Lead and also Jung Il Woo. After watching the first episode i cant help but smile, laugh and awwwww. The young Princes and Hwon Woo also Heom and Won-ah, they are a beauty to see. Not just that their acting is good.

It was unbelievable that such a young age Lee Won and Hwon fell in love. The Princes' acting when the crown princess leave the palace deserved an applause and standing ovation.

I can feel his pain, sadness, its not just a kid loosing a toy, he delivered that heart wrenching scene beautifully.

and finally the grown up Lee Won and Hwon Woo. i dont know much of Han Ga In till i googled her and found out that she's 30 years and married? What?! She doesnt look like 30year old? What's with South Korea's Kimchi?! anyways after watching the half episode of TMETS i started lurking in SOOMPI to sate my obsession.

Hyeong Sun  breaks the ice especially when he open his mouth...there he goes again

Also found out another Lee Min Ho? His hot right? Oh God im turning Cougar. He's uber cute when he smile.

 

 Oh ho. I would also ship this pair.

FEELING...

have you ever feel like your not wanted?

you feel no one wants to be with you 

as if you have a contagious disease.

 that's the feeling of someone

lost in a  place

wanted to cry

wanted to shout

but you just keep it to yourself

you buried it to the bottom of your heart

sometimes you forget about it

sometimes it arise 

to: UNNIE

Saengil Chukahae unnie…

here's  my gift to you.. hope you like it.kekeke

these are the guys who want to greet you  a...

I originally plan to post the “In Time With You: 50 Signs of Premature Aging” but then I though how rude of me to post that on your BDAY so I just came up with the pictures of these guys that makes your heart flutter because of the character they portrayed and also you can tell  they are worth swooning for. My pervert side just pop up so, the actual gift to follow (if there is)..kekeke

NEW YEAR!!

its new year!! only 2 days left and its already 2012....time is short and 1 year is nearing to end but nothing special happened...to me..or my expectations are so high that's why i ended up feeling discourage about the coming year. i dont want super special thing to happen, just a little special for me to really believe that every person has someone that will hold her hands, it may not be forever but for the rest of his life...it doesnt always end the way i want it to be..or maybe i just want too many dramas, im very idealistic. imagine too much.

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NEW JIBI…

X: what’s your position?

Y: I don’t know…i think im an bleep  girl

X: I thought you have something you dreamt of …

Y: I also thought that.. but as they say “great powers comes great responsibility”. I guess im not ready for those kind of job…

X: so what now…

Y: I’ll just go with the flow and see where it gets me… 

HEARSTRINGS (Because I miss u-Jung Hwa)

 Bogopa bogopaso...

This song keep resonating in my head

the first time i watch Heartstrings, 

the moment Lee Shin strum his guitar and begun to sing Because I miss u

I find Jung Yong Hwa manly whenever he sings with his guitar

i keep on playing because i miss u gazillion times in my phone...hehehehe

oh i miss my guitar, its been a long time since i play my guitar (yes i can play a guitar)

seeing this drama reminds me of my high school days...

everyone bring their instrument and we play/sing a song at the park

BECAUSE I MISS YOU

neul ttokgateun haneure
neul gateun haru
geudega omneun-gotmalgoneun
dallajin-ge omneunde

nan utgoman sipeunde
da ijeundeusi
amuir-anin deut geuroke
useumyo salgopeunde

geuriwo geuriwoso
geudega geuriwoso
meil nan honjasoman
geudereul bureugo bullobwayo

bogopa bogopaso
geudega bogopaso
ije nan seupgwanchorom
geude ireumman bureuneyo
oneuldo

nan bonenjur-aratjyo
da namgim-obsi
anijyo anijyo nan ajik
geudereul motbonetjyo

geuriwo geuriwoso
geudega geuriwoso
neil nan honjasoman
geudereul bureugo bullobwayo

bogopa bogopaso
geudega bogopaso
ije nan seupgwanchorom
geude ireumman bureuneyo
oneuldo

haruharuga jugeul gotman gateunde
ottoke heyaheyo

saranghe sarangheyo
geudereul sarangheyo
maljocha mot-hagoso
geudereul geuroke bonenneyo

mianhe mianheyo
ne mari deullinayo
dwineujeun ne gobegeul
geuden deureul su isseulkkayo
sarangheyo 

TRANSLATION

Always under exactly the same sky, always exactly the same day
Other than your not being here, there’s nothing different at all
I just want to smile, want to forget everything
Just like absolutely nothing has happened, smiling to live my days

Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you
Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today

I thought I’d let go, not leaving anything behind
No, no, now I still can’t let you go
Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you

Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today

Everyday, everyday, it feels like I’m gonna die, what should I do?

Love you, love you, I love you
I hadn’t even spoken the words, I just let you go
Sorry, sorry, do you hear my words
My late confession, can you hear it
I love you

EUN HYE'S FASHION

i love Eun Hye's clothes, bags, shoes, accessories and her Samsung Galaxy S2.

so frustrating that i can only post them now..

just for reference if ever im gonna steal her fashion style...kekekeke

her outfits are casual yet classy

you can wear it to work,

kudos to her stylish....

and for what it worth, i even got the same hairstyle..

oooops, this one got mixed up, im in a lazy mode so bear with me

its Fern, i like her outfit here though..

DREAM HIGH

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant believe missed this one when it was still airing!? why did i let myself believe those comment about DREAM HIGH! oh well its never too late for me to spazz..

From first episode i am loving DREAM HIGH SO MUCH....

and i never thought that i would like idols...*peace*

 first meeting is LOVE...whoaaa i envisioned this scene chincha!!!! (for me)

Taec is awesome here...

 and what surprises me is that i never expected i'd like this kid...kid?! guy ok...

im not that old... still in my 20s.

i just dont really fall for younger guy or boy next door look...

im more of a rough guy, harsh, mean, frank, obnoxious sometimes kind of guy.

not the typical night in shinning armor. yes i am talking about KIM JOO WON (secret garden)?

anyways..i think his cute and the way he sings...hahaha

ohhhh kyeopta..im still thinking if im gonna add him to my NEW FOUND OPPA LIST.

but looking at him like this....convince me, more.....